I didn't know the situation with your father had gotten so bad Aki-at. =( I hope there is something or someone to help you pull through.
depression has been building up in me the last couple of days. i just. i dunno
i dont keep posting about it here everyday cause it doesnt do any good, but at the same time i find it
i dont know, maybe it's the gray sky today making me feel so bad.
Thing is, everyone suffers from depression, but when your experiencing it you feel like your the only one experiencing it. You have to remind yourself its not just you. So I feel that in a way it's almost selfish to talk about how your depressed when there is probably people you know experiencing similar feelings and just not saying anything. I just got done deleting a post i made on fb. no one wants to see that crap. It's not easy to hold in though, so I find this topic a good place just to vent i guess. even if i don't say much
does anyone else who is depressed feel the same way?
Do not bottle it in, I would say for you and anyone else. enough bottling in and you might not realize when you've bottled in too much, and when you get that agitated just more likely to do things you'll regret later. It may sound dumb, but consider buying a journal or writing regular "diary entries" on your computer. Sometimes you just really need an outlet, and if someone can recognize that they're experiencing hard times or depressive moods I think that expressing oneself can be helpful. I've never been depressed, but I have been...depressive, so to speak. In any case, venting turbulent emotions onto paper or a Word document did help me out and journal-keeping is perhaps helpful for anybody. I felt ridiculous at first but sticking with it and giving it an honest shot, I became more comfortable over time.
If you're wondering about the social part of just sharing your personal troubles in a public space like Facebook, well at the very least, I think the odds are people won't get super invested in it. But of course do share in places that are comfortable