It's 3AM, I forgot how to fall asleep. I just wait around and wait till morning is here.
She's waiting for me to call her, I've forgotten how to care. No matter how much I love her I'm just too afraid of the future to do something about it.
I've cried yet, I forgot what it is to be sad. I did so many bad things I don't allow myself to feel miserable.
I love life, I hate myself. I don't think about it because it isn't worth affecting myself and her because of it. Still, it's 3h30AM and here I am alone wanting her here, praying she's awake too, crying over me and my damned weakness.
I'm sounding off a bit unfair though. Maybe it is true. I may just wish she yearns for me, but I want to spend my life with her. But not this way.. Not apart.. Holding each other, loving each other.
I don't realize what she means to me. Maybe I never will.. I'm just happy to have her.
Love of mine, wherever you are I hope you are aware that I love you.
Fuck my sins. I've awaited your kiss for too long.